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Entries for October, 2008

October 20, 2008

[374] Hello? Is anybody there?

The hiatus dragged on longer than expected. I was busy drowning myself in assignments, brainstorming sessions, presentations, soldering and desoldering, assembling projects, catching up sleep with cat naps, and yadda yadda. It was painfully tiring, and very much stressful. I never knew that I was working myself out this badly until one fine day when I was preparing a presentation slideshow and scripts for my group members, and one of them decided to play with my hair as a way to help me destress. Yea, right.

She brought out a comb and flipped through my hair, and she yelled, "OMG. Look at the amount of white hair!"

Only then I managed to gravitate the immense stress that I was facing. This semester has been such a meano to me. Conflicts after conflicts. The extremities between busy mode and free mode is so vast, it is either I have too much time in my hands to the extent that I can spend hours in front of the mirror, plucking out flyaway hair, or that I am so busy that I have to contemplate between to eat or to sleep.

The frustrations that I have in this semester are tantamount to my workload. When things are all about meeting expectations, it makes me more and more irritable by the day. But busy days make this semester go by faster than the usual accord. It is just so cliché, a blessing in disguise.

I am very sorry for the lack of updates, which I am obviously blaming on the workload that I have.

The whole world has also been questioning about my whereabouts, wondering where I have gone to, probably married to one of those conglomerate business owners in Batu Pahat, and not wanting to come back to Ipoh. Yea, so not happening right now.

For the purpose of updating, I have not changed much physically. But I am turning into a cynic, bits and pieces forming itself. There is also no change of status. This is new semester where we have newbies, but I have yet to go fishing. I only survive with roving eyes. I feel that after that one encounter, I would not want to face similar events anymore. Or at least, for the time being.

Guys that I see here are so not worth the attention. I would rather be sleeping instead wanting to spend time tackling them. They are superficial and nothing appealing about them. If I want nutcrackers to talk to, just to chill. I will look for them. Nothing else.

I typed those things above during one of my lectures this morning, which I plan to post. Then I gatal-gatal added more things in it, doubling the amount of present content, without saving a backup copy. Then I wanted to post a picture as well. Tabulas went gatal-gatal refreshed everything and my entry went to the jamban. Very the hebat.

So I don't feel like retyping the things that I have typed. Saya sedang datang bulan. So I have the right to be easily-irritated. Bleh.

Oh. The sister graduated last week.

(Okay, this is where a picture of my sister's convocation should be. Imagine her standing in front of the stage with a banner stretched across with

"Inaugural Convocation Ceremony"
15th October 2008
Officiated by:
Y. Bhg. Dato' Seri S. Samy Vellu

and also picture her in those ceremonial robes with a scroll in her hands. Yes. All that.)

I wonder when mine would come along. Two years from now seems distant.

| music | Broken Strings - Jay Chou

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October 28, 2008

[375] I ought to bathe now, but ...

by chenyeng2706 | 06:11 PM

[The novelty-feeling of a brand new entry from someone who rarely updates ...]

This is the end of the semester, yet again. The study week is on, and I am supposed to be studying. But how studious can I be when I have plans lined up. I have a JB plan and an N9 plan just for this week itself. And finals is starting the week after. Super right?

Bah. This is my well-earned break. And it always gets me to think how fast semesters pass by when I get to the end of every semesters.

I spent 3 days (since last Friday night until now) watching HK drama, playing Sims2, and all sorts of ReflexiveArcade games. I just can never kick off this procrastinating habit that I have. But at the end of the day, I would still study, and you can start imagining me sitting at my table, ladened with notes and textbooks, and of course, me busy scribbling notes.

The sister bought another Husky a couple of months ago, and she didn't bother telling me because I stay all the way down in Batu Pahat. Meano betul. But it's okay. I am a very forgiving person. Lol.

*sensing sinking boredom*

Geez. I am bored. But I cannot afford wasting time.

Me and friends are supposed to be in a house-hunting frenzy in time for our third year because next semester is our last semester being in the tyranny of the makcik guard in this residential college. The most popular housing area is at Taman Waja and apparently, there are no vacant houses to rent. Which I believe to be only half-true. We have yet to get dead onto looking for houses. We are just hearing bits and pieces of news from different sources.

The only thing that I worry about is just who will be my housemates then. This is always a headache. Probably because I am not all for being "soul-sisters" with people, so it's quite difficult to have people fighting for me to move in with them. Instead, I have to be the one heading the troop for this house-hunting business. And probably be the one talking in her smattering of Mandarin with the landlord/lady.

Can't I be the weaker ones, and wait for people to worry for me?

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